Tuesday, December 22, 2009

December Never the Same

Sometimes I wonder if you knew something I didn’t.

Something we didn’t.

Looking at pictures of you, I can almost see it in your eyes.

I wish I could talk to you.

I wish I could pry behind those eyes.

I wish I could ask you why.


As always, I have my opinions.

I have my suspicions.

None of my shit matters though

‘cause we may never know

and your physical being

and your reasons why

exist only in realms

of non-existence

now.


I love you.

I hate what you’ve done.

But I can’t judge… for once in my life.

Living… really… is a choice.

As is dying.

I just hope for you

you’re better off dead

than you were alive.

Has the pain subsided?

I hope so.


I’ll always miss you.

Wish you could’ve just pulled through.




Fuck, Shannon.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Regarding Fall 2007




That autumn not much mattered.
There was an endless fountain
of booze
thanks to my roommate's twenty-something thousand dollar loan.
The only tests we had
were that of psychological and physical stamina.
Drinking was our study time and
our instructor:
the drink.
Deathly crystal clear
always the worst.
Glowing, smiling caramel
always the best.

I could never say, "No."

Most nights we'd have a blast
plastering our deepest
and drunkest
words and actions
onto the faces and minds
that happened to show up
and fall victim.
We owned that fuckin' place.

Some nights we relegated to the woods
the bright, crackling fire as our night light.
Strangers would appear
out of the darkness.
It was neutral there
and we hated it that way.
It opened too many doors
for idiot morons
coming in
ruining the vibe.
We didn't own that place.



Other nights

when it was quiet

we would talk philosophy
and suicide.

Friday, December 4, 2009

I am in love! -OR- Powdered/pilled alcohol, come to me baby

Despite what I've always thought of how traditional & conformist marital status was (is) like, it looks like I'll be getting hitched myself quite soon. Yes, I know I'm a hypocrite. I'm only human!!

A look at my new lovers -- yes that's plural -- here, here & here.
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Also, this is pretty cool... and completely unrelated. A look at how far we've come in storage.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

This site is dope!

Check this out, then this out, then float around. I hope you have time. If you don't bookmark it!